Tonight I was reminded yet again of why 99.9% of my friends are male. Cause girls are NUTS.
Some months ago, my former best friend & I tried rekindling our friendship. It ended in 07 over her finding out that I dated her ex for like a week back in 2001. They were broken up at the time, and he & I got along really well so we got together. Yes, it was a bad idea & I felt so horrible about it that I broke it off after a week even though I really liked him. She found out 6 years later & flipped out. All of a sudden I'm a mega-whore & the worst human being in the world. She literally told EVERYONE who would listen all about it. Added little twists to the story, like how I plotted to steal him the whole time & how I tried to break them up. Haha, NO. I tried to keep them TOGETHER. I was the one that both of them called whenever they'd fight & I was the one who sorted out their damn problems & tried to get them to STFU & get along. She turned all our friends against me, including people I knew before she even joined our circle of friends. It didn't matter that one, no- TWO of her friends had dated one of MY long-term boyfriends, oh no, or that she herself had had a romantic relationship with one of my BFs(and she never bothered to tell me about it when he tried to hit on her when he & I were still together!). *I'M* the slut because she had KIDS with the guy. Oh, you didn't know that if a guy knocks you up that means he's yours forever even when you break up? Yeah, I must have missed that memo too. Oh, won't somebody PLEASE think of the children?! Screw you guys, fuck the children. I apologized out the ass, but it did no good. De-friend.
Anyway, a few months ago she messaged me on facebook, saying she wanted to be friends again. I was like 'cool!'. RE-friend. So we try to be friends again & all seemed to be going well. Until the other day, when I made the grievous mistake of friending some random dude on Facebook, one of her friends from her profile, simply because he seemed pretty cool. Had NO idea that they were secret fuckbuddies, and that adding him was going to stir up ALL THIS BULLSHIT & result in her deleting me & spreading a bunch of lies about me to all our friends yet again. Apparently this guy emailed her to brag that I friended him, so of course she assumed I was out to 'steal' him. Um, no, he honestly just seemed nice! De-friend again.
According to the hysterical rant that one of our mutual friends posted on MY profile tonight- I had a partial birth abortion at 5 months even though I'm a right wing anti-abortion nutjob(not true- I've never had a PBA, I'm an Independent, & I'm pro-choice),and I specifically go after married men. Yeah, I did sleep with a married man once. BEFORE I FOUND OUT ABOUT HIS F*CKING WIFE!!!!!
With friends like these, who the hell needs enemies? At least my enemies are up front with me, they don't smile at my face & then talk shit behind my damn back. Good riddance, you catty bitches.
GUYS have never done this to me. GUYS have never schemed and gossiped behind my back. GUYS don't dwell on shit from 9 goddamn years ago & still talk about it like it was yesterday & never forgive me for ONE SINGLE STUPID ASS MISTAKE THAT I'VE APOLOGIZED FOR A MILLION TIMES EVEN THOUGH THEY & THEIR WHORE FRIENDS DID THE SAME FUCKING SHIT TO ME.
No offense to any girls who read this who are NOT bitchy, 2-faced cunts. If you're one of the few girls on this planet who's actually NOT completely fucking crazy, then I salute you.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
Either learn english or quit @#$%ing calling me.
It seems like every time I get a new phone number, the first couple months with it are spent running off all the Mexicans who won't quit calling me looking for their damn friends. Last time on Sprint, my number had been previously owned by 'Michelle', who- judging by all the perverts that called me day & night talking dirty in spanish- was some sort of hispanic hooker. It was a solid 6 months before the calls & texts that began with "Hola mami!" tapered off. After a while I just started telling them that the dumb bitch was DEAD just to shut them the hell up.
Now, there's one guy with an out of state number who's called about 6 times in the past week & a half. I answer, IN ENGLISH, and he starts rambling in spanish. I say loudly & clearly, "I'm sorry sir, you have the wrong number" and hang up. But the idiot keeps calling!!! You'd think that by the 2nd or 3rd time you call your 'friend' and get a strange english-speaking chick on the other end, you'd put 2 & 2 together & deduce that hey- I might just have the wrong damn number! Oh no, not my little *amigo*. He's a persistent little bugger! He just KNOWS his friend is on the other end somewhere & he will only take si for an answer.
I was trying to catch a few ZZZ's in my car on my lunch hour today, when my little illegal buddy decides to call again. I answer, he starts rattling off in spanish as usual, and I say(very firmly, might I add), "NO. STOP. Sir, you have the WRONG NUMBER. Goodbye!" and hangup. 30 seconds later- he CALLS BACK!!! I lost it. Without waiting for him to say a word, I yell "QUIT FUCKING CALLING ME!!! YOU HAVE THE WRONG DAMN NUMBER!!!" and hang up. I guess his English skills finally kicked in after that, cause he didn't call back again. Sorry if it seems 'mean' or whatever, but I've had enough of this shit. I've tried to politely let him know multiple times that he had the wrong number but he wouldn't listen. If this asshole would take the time to learn the language of the country he's living in, he would understand that he's got the wrong damn number. Shit like this is why I hate illegal immigrants. Here's a novel idea- if you wanna live here so bad, why not come here legally, learn our language, and contribute to society? Hell, if MY family can do it, so can you! Shit.
Also, I'd like to thank the burrito-eating buttmunch who had my number prior to me for signing up for that lovely 'joke of the day' text-messaging service that I get to pay for now! I discovered a nice little $9.99 monthly charge on my bill a week ago. WTF. Thank Odin that T-Mobile is staffed by kind, understanding people or else I may not have been able to get that charge credited back.
So, off I go to the T-Mobile store, to plead my case for a benevolent rep to waive the $15 fee to change my goddamn number. Stupid Mexicans. I'm just gonna start saying horrible, offensive things in Spanish whenever they call.
Now, there's one guy with an out of state number who's called about 6 times in the past week & a half. I answer, IN ENGLISH, and he starts rambling in spanish. I say loudly & clearly, "I'm sorry sir, you have the wrong number" and hang up. But the idiot keeps calling!!! You'd think that by the 2nd or 3rd time you call your 'friend' and get a strange english-speaking chick on the other end, you'd put 2 & 2 together & deduce that hey- I might just have the wrong damn number! Oh no, not my little *amigo*. He's a persistent little bugger! He just KNOWS his friend is on the other end somewhere & he will only take si for an answer.
I was trying to catch a few ZZZ's in my car on my lunch hour today, when my little illegal buddy decides to call again. I answer, he starts rattling off in spanish as usual, and I say(very firmly, might I add), "NO. STOP. Sir, you have the WRONG NUMBER. Goodbye!" and hangup. 30 seconds later- he CALLS BACK!!! I lost it. Without waiting for him to say a word, I yell "QUIT FUCKING CALLING ME!!! YOU HAVE THE WRONG DAMN NUMBER!!!" and hang up. I guess his English skills finally kicked in after that, cause he didn't call back again. Sorry if it seems 'mean' or whatever, but I've had enough of this shit. I've tried to politely let him know multiple times that he had the wrong number but he wouldn't listen. If this asshole would take the time to learn the language of the country he's living in, he would understand that he's got the wrong damn number. Shit like this is why I hate illegal immigrants. Here's a novel idea- if you wanna live here so bad, why not come here legally, learn our language, and contribute to society? Hell, if MY family can do it, so can you! Shit.
Also, I'd like to thank the burrito-eating buttmunch who had my number prior to me for signing up for that lovely 'joke of the day' text-messaging service that I get to pay for now! I discovered a nice little $9.99 monthly charge on my bill a week ago. WTF. Thank Odin that T-Mobile is staffed by kind, understanding people or else I may not have been able to get that charge credited back.
So, off I go to the T-Mobile store, to plead my case for a benevolent rep to waive the $15 fee to change my goddamn number. Stupid Mexicans. I'm just gonna start saying horrible, offensive things in Spanish whenever they call.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Introducing... my new baby!
So last saturday I finally got myself an HTC HD2. Radio Shack had it for $150, and they offered me $142 in store credit(a program I had NO idea even existed, but will use from now on!) for my Touch Pro 2. I didn't wanna give it up, but an HD2 for $8 was simply too great a deal to pass up. Oh, how I have pined and drooled over this phone and now it's finally mine. MY PRECIOUS!!! Okay, enough of that shit. Lets get serious here.
I figured I'd do a quickie review of it just in case anyone cares or actually reads my damn blog. I'll be comparing it to my last phone, the Touch Pro 2, since that was the most awesome phone EVAR until I got this one.
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Teh awsum...
The CPU.
The TP2 had a 528 mhz ARM processor that got the job done, but lagged at times. The HD2 has a 1ghz Snapdragon processor that kicks SO much ass it makes me wanna vomit in joy. This phone is snappier than a sorority girl's chewing gum. No more video lags!
The screen.
The TP2 had a 3.6 inch screen, which was very nice but had issues with 'oil spots' and dead pixels. On mine I think I counted 25+ dead pixels. The HD2 has a 4.3 inch screen which made me orgasm in my pants on first sight of it. It's bright, crisp, clear, and godlike. Pictures and videos look AMAZING. No dead pixels either! This screen is so huge in fact that the HD2 can *almost* be classified as a small tablet PC with phone capabilities.
No more "wake-up" issues.
The TP2 had serious issues with not waking up when you press the power button. It was a widespread issue, present over every ROM & carrier. No wake-up issues at ALL on the HD2! Yesssss.
No more answer delays either.
Every other Pocket PC phone I've ever had has been on Sprint, which is CDMA. They have all had issues where I was not able to answer the phone without serious delays or having it go straight to voicemail. It had something to do with the data connection not dropping properly when the call came in, or something like that. My phone would ring, and I'd hit answer over & over again and SOMETIMES it would answer but most of the time it'd go to VM & I'd have to call them back. This might just be a CDMA issue, but it is no more an issue with the HD2. My calls pick up instantly. Thank god. I was sick of calling people back & explaining that I TRIED to answer but my damn phone glitched out.
The camera. Oh god, the CAMERA!!!
*Homer-drool* HTC finally got a camera right on the HD2. I have never had a PPC phone with a good camera before. My Mogul's & TP1's were OK, the TP2's sucked, but they were all intolerably slow to launch & take pictures. It used to take me a good 45 seconds to launch the cam & take one pic. Not anymore. I have the camera mapped to my left homescreen soft key, and it now takes me roughly FIVE SECONDS to hit the home button, launch the camera, and snap the picture, even with all the settings set to auto & even if the flash goes off. The HD2 has a 5mp camera, and the pictures it takes are simply SUPERB. Crisp, clear, bright colors, etc. The camera on the HD2 is so good that I've actually begun leaving my digital camera at home. I have a lovely little Samsung 8mp camera that I used to tote around everywhere cause my phone cams all sucked so bad, but I no longer need to carry it everywhere anymore.
And... THE FLASH!!!
Thanks HTC, for bringing back the flash! And it's a kickassed flash too, dual LEDs with a built-in flashlight app. Awesome.
No more overheating.
The TP1 had a severe overheating issue, and the TP2 had a bit of a heat issue too. No heat issues with the HD2. Now, it can get warm if I use it a lot while charging it, but that's the extent of it. I can listen to streaming internet radio for 2 hours at a time & it stays cool. I can be on the phone for hours also & it stays cool then too. WIN.
New power button location.
Huzzah! They moved the power button from the top of the device to the 'end' button! Much easier to turn on if you have small elfin hands like I do. It used to give me a hand cramp to have to palm my TP2 & reach up top with my index finger to hit the power button. I've been wanting them to move it to the end key for years now. Hellz yes.
Ample onboard memory.
With 512mb of ram & 1gig of onboard memory, you will never experience low ram messages or have to install another app to your storage card ever again.
The stock T-Mobile ROM is quite good!
Only once before have I ever actually LIKED a stock ROM, and that was with my Mogul. The T-Mobile HD2 has probably the best stock ROM I've ever used. I went ahead & unlocked it & tried a few custom ROMs anyway just for shits & giggles, but I ended up back with the stock ROM cause it was just better, plain & simple. Minimal bloatware, lightning fast, does everything I need it to do. Love it. But then again, T-Mobile is well-known for being the least invasive cell carrier(probably because they're a European company, and Europe is famous for the L.I.T.H.A. approach to cell-branding), injecting the least amount of crap on their phones. Unlike Sprint & Verizon, who practically rewrite the whole damn OS to advertise themselves.
Build quality.
The TP2 had great build quality, don't get me wrong, but the HD2 feels like a work of art in my hand. It's just beautiful. It has a tempered glass screen with an aluminum body. At least I think it's aluminum, the battery door is for sure though. It's solid but not too heavy, and feels very "rich". The screen is supposedly totally scratch resistant too, there are videos on Youtube of people trying to scratch up the screen to show how tough it is(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcEaehKWr2s), but I still use a screen protector cause I'm just paranoid like that. There are some sharp edges on this phone though, on the camera & by the earpiece. LOL in fact, you could probably grate cheese on the earpiece.
Comes with a case!
HTC packaged a black silicone skin case with the HD2, which I think is just awesome. These are the kinds of cases I normally buy anyway, and having something to protect it while I'm waiting for my purple eBay cases is really nice. Kudos, HTC.
It comes with a 16 gig card!!!
How freaking cool is that?! And the card is preloaded with both Transformers movies too. Nerdgasm.
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And what's not quite as groin-grabbingly awesome...
The battery life is not quite as good as the TP2's.
The HD2 has a 1230 mAh battery, which I find bafflingly small for such a high-powered device. Now, it does do OKAY. I can get through a full day with no problems unless I'm at work streaming Stars Radio all day, in which case I have to go charge it in my car during lunch or else I'd be outta juice by 3 or 4. I do think the CPU must manage power better than the older 528-ers, cause I can't imagine why HTC would downgrade the battery so drastically otherwise. BUTT- you can find 1600mAh batts on eBay for $9.99, which is almost 400mAh more than stock & should be more than adequate for most people including this nerd.
New micro-USB port.
This isn't necessarily a BAD thing per se, it just annoys me to have to buy a new car charger cause all my previous phones were mini-usb.
The capacitive screen.
Never having had a device with a capacitive screen before, I did not know what to expect with one. It's a HUGE learning curve coming from a resistive screen. It's neat to be able to shut the iTards up by showing them that they're not the only ones who can pinch & zoom anymore, but a capacitive screen is harder to use. I used to type with my nails & had no issues flying along with the onscreen keyboard on my TP2. In fact, I was so good at it that 95% of the time I didn't even use the slide-out KB to type texts & emails. Now, I don't have a choice but to use a screen keyboard, and with a capacitive screen I have to type with the pads of my fingers. Typo city. With Finger Keyboard & the 'decrease screen sensitivity' hack, it's workable, and I AM getting better, but I still stand by my prior assertions that resistive screens are easier to use. Resistive screens operate off of pressure, you can actually see the stylus indenting on it if you watch as you tap. Capacitive screens work off the conducted electricity in your skin, which is why stylii won't work with them. They DO have capacitive stylii, but they're specially made to carry the charge from your flesh to the screen & are not very accurate. Also, if my hands are cold or very dry, it messes with my screen taps. I find myself licking my fingers a lot if I have trouble tapping a link or whatever. There is a visible grid of dots on the HD2's screen at certain angles. This does not bother me, it's just the capacitive matrix, but I've read some reviews where whine-bags bitched about it so I figured I'd mention it.
Still no d-pad.
*sigh* I'm beginning to abandon my hopes of ever owning another device with a d-pad, trackball, or joystick.
Speaker quality.
Its... not very good. The TP2 sounded FANTASTIC, but the HD2 is somewhat lacking in the speaker dept. Loud sounds on the speaker are very distorted & tinny sounding. I'm really hoping HTC comes out with a fix for this. I'm pretty sure its mostly software-related because the distortion transfers over to the headphones if the volume is up all the way, and the SRS WOW cab seems to help. Maybe a new sound DLL is in order...? damn my lack of coding ability!
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That's all I can think of to yak about for now, I'll update if I think of anything else to rave or bitch about.
kabuk1's verdict- I LOVE THIS PHONE!!!!!
This is by far the best phone/PDA/secret lover I have ever had. It pleases me in ways I didn't even know I could be pleased. This will most likely be the last device released with REAL Windows Mobile, so get it before MS fucks everything up with Windows Diarrhea 7. I dumped Sprint to get this phone, and I do not regret it one bit. I can easily see myself using the HD2 for years to come.
I figured I'd do a quickie review of it just in case anyone cares or actually reads my damn blog. I'll be comparing it to my last phone, the Touch Pro 2, since that was the most awesome phone EVAR until I got this one.
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Teh awsum...
The CPU.
The TP2 had a 528 mhz ARM processor that got the job done, but lagged at times. The HD2 has a 1ghz Snapdragon processor that kicks SO much ass it makes me wanna vomit in joy. This phone is snappier than a sorority girl's chewing gum. No more video lags!
The screen.
The TP2 had a 3.6 inch screen, which was very nice but had issues with 'oil spots' and dead pixels. On mine I think I counted 25+ dead pixels. The HD2 has a 4.3 inch screen which made me orgasm in my pants on first sight of it. It's bright, crisp, clear, and godlike. Pictures and videos look AMAZING. No dead pixels either! This screen is so huge in fact that the HD2 can *almost* be classified as a small tablet PC with phone capabilities.
No more "wake-up" issues.
The TP2 had serious issues with not waking up when you press the power button. It was a widespread issue, present over every ROM & carrier. No wake-up issues at ALL on the HD2! Yesssss.
No more answer delays either.
Every other Pocket PC phone I've ever had has been on Sprint, which is CDMA. They have all had issues where I was not able to answer the phone without serious delays or having it go straight to voicemail. It had something to do with the data connection not dropping properly when the call came in, or something like that. My phone would ring, and I'd hit answer over & over again and SOMETIMES it would answer but most of the time it'd go to VM & I'd have to call them back. This might just be a CDMA issue, but it is no more an issue with the HD2. My calls pick up instantly. Thank god. I was sick of calling people back & explaining that I TRIED to answer but my damn phone glitched out.
The camera. Oh god, the CAMERA!!!
*Homer-drool* HTC finally got a camera right on the HD2. I have never had a PPC phone with a good camera before. My Mogul's & TP1's were OK, the TP2's sucked, but they were all intolerably slow to launch & take pictures. It used to take me a good 45 seconds to launch the cam & take one pic. Not anymore. I have the camera mapped to my left homescreen soft key, and it now takes me roughly FIVE SECONDS to hit the home button, launch the camera, and snap the picture, even with all the settings set to auto & even if the flash goes off. The HD2 has a 5mp camera, and the pictures it takes are simply SUPERB. Crisp, clear, bright colors, etc. The camera on the HD2 is so good that I've actually begun leaving my digital camera at home. I have a lovely little Samsung 8mp camera that I used to tote around everywhere cause my phone cams all sucked so bad, but I no longer need to carry it everywhere anymore.
And... THE FLASH!!!
Thanks HTC, for bringing back the flash! And it's a kickassed flash too, dual LEDs with a built-in flashlight app. Awesome.
No more overheating.
The TP1 had a severe overheating issue, and the TP2 had a bit of a heat issue too. No heat issues with the HD2. Now, it can get warm if I use it a lot while charging it, but that's the extent of it. I can listen to streaming internet radio for 2 hours at a time & it stays cool. I can be on the phone for hours also & it stays cool then too. WIN.
New power button location.
Huzzah! They moved the power button from the top of the device to the 'end' button! Much easier to turn on if you have small elfin hands like I do. It used to give me a hand cramp to have to palm my TP2 & reach up top with my index finger to hit the power button. I've been wanting them to move it to the end key for years now. Hellz yes.
Ample onboard memory.
With 512mb of ram & 1gig of onboard memory, you will never experience low ram messages or have to install another app to your storage card ever again.
The stock T-Mobile ROM is quite good!
Only once before have I ever actually LIKED a stock ROM, and that was with my Mogul. The T-Mobile HD2 has probably the best stock ROM I've ever used. I went ahead & unlocked it & tried a few custom ROMs anyway just for shits & giggles, but I ended up back with the stock ROM cause it was just better, plain & simple. Minimal bloatware, lightning fast, does everything I need it to do. Love it. But then again, T-Mobile is well-known for being the least invasive cell carrier(probably because they're a European company, and Europe is famous for the L.I.T.H.A. approach to cell-branding), injecting the least amount of crap on their phones. Unlike Sprint & Verizon, who practically rewrite the whole damn OS to advertise themselves.
Build quality.
The TP2 had great build quality, don't get me wrong, but the HD2 feels like a work of art in my hand. It's just beautiful. It has a tempered glass screen with an aluminum body. At least I think it's aluminum, the battery door is for sure though. It's solid but not too heavy, and feels very "rich". The screen is supposedly totally scratch resistant too, there are videos on Youtube of people trying to scratch up the screen to show how tough it is(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NcEaehKWr2s), but I still use a screen protector cause I'm just paranoid like that. There are some sharp edges on this phone though, on the camera & by the earpiece. LOL in fact, you could probably grate cheese on the earpiece.
Comes with a case!
HTC packaged a black silicone skin case with the HD2, which I think is just awesome. These are the kinds of cases I normally buy anyway, and having something to protect it while I'm waiting for my purple eBay cases is really nice. Kudos, HTC.
It comes with a 16 gig card!!!
How freaking cool is that?! And the card is preloaded with both Transformers movies too. Nerdgasm.
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And what's not quite as groin-grabbingly awesome...
The battery life is not quite as good as the TP2's.
The HD2 has a 1230 mAh battery, which I find bafflingly small for such a high-powered device. Now, it does do OKAY. I can get through a full day with no problems unless I'm at work streaming Stars Radio all day, in which case I have to go charge it in my car during lunch or else I'd be outta juice by 3 or 4. I do think the CPU must manage power better than the older 528-ers, cause I can't imagine why HTC would downgrade the battery so drastically otherwise. BUTT- you can find 1600mAh batts on eBay for $9.99, which is almost 400mAh more than stock & should be more than adequate for most people including this nerd.
New micro-USB port.
This isn't necessarily a BAD thing per se, it just annoys me to have to buy a new car charger cause all my previous phones were mini-usb.
The capacitive screen.
Never having had a device with a capacitive screen before, I did not know what to expect with one. It's a HUGE learning curve coming from a resistive screen. It's neat to be able to shut the iTards up by showing them that they're not the only ones who can pinch & zoom anymore, but a capacitive screen is harder to use. I used to type with my nails & had no issues flying along with the onscreen keyboard on my TP2. In fact, I was so good at it that 95% of the time I didn't even use the slide-out KB to type texts & emails. Now, I don't have a choice but to use a screen keyboard, and with a capacitive screen I have to type with the pads of my fingers. Typo city. With Finger Keyboard & the 'decrease screen sensitivity' hack, it's workable, and I AM getting better, but I still stand by my prior assertions that resistive screens are easier to use. Resistive screens operate off of pressure, you can actually see the stylus indenting on it if you watch as you tap. Capacitive screens work off the conducted electricity in your skin, which is why stylii won't work with them. They DO have capacitive stylii, but they're specially made to carry the charge from your flesh to the screen & are not very accurate. Also, if my hands are cold or very dry, it messes with my screen taps. I find myself licking my fingers a lot if I have trouble tapping a link or whatever. There is a visible grid of dots on the HD2's screen at certain angles. This does not bother me, it's just the capacitive matrix, but I've read some reviews where whine-bags bitched about it so I figured I'd mention it.
Still no d-pad.
*sigh* I'm beginning to abandon my hopes of ever owning another device with a d-pad, trackball, or joystick.
Speaker quality.
Its... not very good. The TP2 sounded FANTASTIC, but the HD2 is somewhat lacking in the speaker dept. Loud sounds on the speaker are very distorted & tinny sounding. I'm really hoping HTC comes out with a fix for this. I'm pretty sure its mostly software-related because the distortion transfers over to the headphones if the volume is up all the way, and the SRS WOW cab seems to help. Maybe a new sound DLL is in order...? damn my lack of coding ability!
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That's all I can think of to yak about for now, I'll update if I think of anything else to rave or bitch about.
kabuk1's verdict- I LOVE THIS PHONE!!!!!
This is by far the best phone/PDA/secret lover I have ever had. It pleases me in ways I didn't even know I could be pleased. This will most likely be the last device released with REAL Windows Mobile, so get it before MS fucks everything up with Windows Diarrhea 7. I dumped Sprint to get this phone, and I do not regret it one bit. I can easily see myself using the HD2 for years to come.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Throw Grandma from the Train! Or, alternate title- Why I Believe in Assisted Suicide.
I am 100% for assisted suicide for the elderly & infirm, for one main reason. And that reason is- my grandmother. She's a prime candidate for assisted suicide. She's 90 years old, incontinent, and has full-blown dementia. My mom had the brilliant idea to move her down here from Wisconsin, and boy howdy is she regretting it now. Nearly every day my mom has to mop up puddles of piss, or clean SHIT off of grandma's hands because she craps herself & starts playing with it. Her dementia is so bad that she has no idea who any of us are anymore, except for my mom. She shuffles around the house, talking to people who aren't there all day long. She gets belligerent & violent, and one time she even threw a book at my dad. She scares the hell out of my baby sister, the poor kid hides under the table most of the time now.
My mom is miserable & stressed out all the time, and snaps at everyone now. She's trying to get me to forgo my job search to 'babysit' grandma during the day & I told her I might do that, maybe when HELL FREEZES OVER. I babysat her once, and she thought I was my aunt & started yelling at me cause I couldn't understand what the hell she was saying. She speaks a wierd dialect of Russian & Croatian, and only my mom & aunt can understand her. And my mom got all pissed off at me earlier tonight cause I told her there's no fscking way I'm gonna come over & change Grandma's diaper every day. Hell no I'm not doing that shit! I feel bad for my mom & I'd love to help her, but frankly that old lady terrifies me & I'm not gonna get stuff thrown at me or get yelled at & pissed on.
Sorry, I know it sounds terrible, but my mom didn't ask anyone else if it was ok to move Grandma in. Not me, my dad, or my sister. She just brought her down & moved her in, not caring if we liked it or not. None of us asked for this & now my mom thinks she can just EXPECT us all to put our lives on hold. Sorry mom, but no. It does not work that way.
So we're looking for a reasonably-priced nursing home to put her in now, cause she needs 24 hour care & supervision. I cannot believe my mom actually thought she could do this on her own.
Assisted suicide NEEDS to be legal, like NOW. People like my Grandma should not be forced to linger on like that. She's been saying for years now that "god forgot about her", and how she wishes she would just die. I've already told my mom that when SHE gets like this, I myself am gonna throw her into a bog. And she thanked me! NOBODY SHOULD HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THAT!!! And nobody should have to spend their middle age wiping their elderly parents' butts.
C'mon Obama- do something worthwhile & legalize euthanasia.
My mom is miserable & stressed out all the time, and snaps at everyone now. She's trying to get me to forgo my job search to 'babysit' grandma during the day & I told her I might do that, maybe when HELL FREEZES OVER. I babysat her once, and she thought I was my aunt & started yelling at me cause I couldn't understand what the hell she was saying. She speaks a wierd dialect of Russian & Croatian, and only my mom & aunt can understand her. And my mom got all pissed off at me earlier tonight cause I told her there's no fscking way I'm gonna come over & change Grandma's diaper every day. Hell no I'm not doing that shit! I feel bad for my mom & I'd love to help her, but frankly that old lady terrifies me & I'm not gonna get stuff thrown at me or get yelled at & pissed on.
Sorry, I know it sounds terrible, but my mom didn't ask anyone else if it was ok to move Grandma in. Not me, my dad, or my sister. She just brought her down & moved her in, not caring if we liked it or not. None of us asked for this & now my mom thinks she can just EXPECT us all to put our lives on hold. Sorry mom, but no. It does not work that way.
So we're looking for a reasonably-priced nursing home to put her in now, cause she needs 24 hour care & supervision. I cannot believe my mom actually thought she could do this on her own.
Assisted suicide NEEDS to be legal, like NOW. People like my Grandma should not be forced to linger on like that. She's been saying for years now that "god forgot about her", and how she wishes she would just die. I've already told my mom that when SHE gets like this, I myself am gonna throw her into a bog. And she thanked me! NOBODY SHOULD HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THAT!!! And nobody should have to spend their middle age wiping their elderly parents' butts.
C'mon Obama- do something worthwhile & legalize euthanasia.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
April Fool's!
Or not... I hate April Fool's day. I will not be posting any stupid shit about how I've realized that I'm really a lesbian liberal who intends to vote Obama back into office in 2012, or any other idiotic A.F. day 'jokes'. I hate April 1st with a passion. I hate visiting all my favorite blogs & websites & seeing some stupid crap posted in lieu of real content. I hate that shit. No offense to anyone who enjoys pulling April Fool's internet pranks- but it's not funny, it's not clever, it's just stupid.
I play pranks all year long, and you should too. Don't confine them to one day when everyone else is playing pranks too.
I play pranks all year long, and you should too. Don't confine them to one day when everyone else is playing pranks too.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Now I remember why I quit hanging out with girls.
Cause they're a bunch of critical, catty, mean bitches. I frequent Jezebel.com every day. I like the articles on there and I often lend my opinions & feedback via the comments area. However, I am seriously considering deleting my bookmark. Why? I have never seen so many radical, hateful women anywhere else in my entire life, and they're ruining the site for me. The unwritten code of conduct at Jezebel is thus:
1. Love Obama or GTFO.
2. Jezebel is only for radical leftists, so everyone else GTFO.
3. Hate all men or GTFO.
4. Never, EVER make any statement that could be construed as even remotely conservative, or else you are a racist, woman-hating piece of shit who needs to go die. (seriously- a BLACK WOMAN could get on there & say she doesn't love Obama & she'd be labeled a self-hating racist. And don't even think about disagreeing with abortion. I'm pro-choice but I said once that I don't like partial birth abortions & I got shit for that.)
5. Never, EVER express your opinion unless it matches the rest of the 'Jezzies' opinions(IE- unless you're a extreme leftist, keep your opinions to yourself).
Yes, I'm conservative. I'm not ashamed. I'm an Independent conservative who thinks that Obama is a @#$%ing idiot who's ruining this country. I'm also pro-choice and a feminist. I think women can & should do whatever the hell men can do. But I guess I'm not feminist enough for the other commenters on Jezebel, cause nearly everything I say gets picked apart. It's REALLY starting to piss me off, and I'm having a hard time holding my temper around those bitches anymore.
This kind of bullshit is why 99% of my friends are guys. And the few chicks I do associate with are manlier than my guy friends. My best girl friend can out-fart my best guy friend, for example. Any women out there who are not catty, snide, hateful professional victims? Lets see some hands.
1. Love Obama or GTFO.
2. Jezebel is only for radical leftists, so everyone else GTFO.
3. Hate all men or GTFO.
4. Never, EVER make any statement that could be construed as even remotely conservative, or else you are a racist, woman-hating piece of shit who needs to go die. (seriously- a BLACK WOMAN could get on there & say she doesn't love Obama & she'd be labeled a self-hating racist. And don't even think about disagreeing with abortion. I'm pro-choice but I said once that I don't like partial birth abortions & I got shit for that.)
5. Never, EVER express your opinion unless it matches the rest of the 'Jezzies' opinions(IE- unless you're a extreme leftist, keep your opinions to yourself).
Yes, I'm conservative. I'm not ashamed. I'm an Independent conservative who thinks that Obama is a @#$%ing idiot who's ruining this country. I'm also pro-choice and a feminist. I think women can & should do whatever the hell men can do. But I guess I'm not feminist enough for the other commenters on Jezebel, cause nearly everything I say gets picked apart. It's REALLY starting to piss me off, and I'm having a hard time holding my temper around those bitches anymore.
This kind of bullshit is why 99% of my friends are guys. And the few chicks I do associate with are manlier than my guy friends. My best girl friend can out-fart my best guy friend, for example. Any women out there who are not catty, snide, hateful professional victims? Lets see some hands.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Girly survey
Just to dispel your growing suspicions that I'm a butch gayelle...
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1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
If they're honestly being sweet, yes.
2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
Ew, short for sure. I hate poofy dresses.
3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
Read it.
4. Group dates or single dates?
Both.
5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
I hate when ANYONE does that. It makes me wonder if I really know them at all.
6. Are diamonds a girl's best friend?
No, I dont like diamonds. Now, ancient Dragon's Breath glass, THAT's a girl's best friend. Well, a nerdy medievalist-girl's best friend anyway...
7. Is your hair up or down?
Always down. Too short to put up yet :/
8. Do you straighten your hair?
Yep. I have the worst hair texture, its straight in parts, wavy in parts, and curly at my nape. AND its thick & takes ages to straighten. I hate hate hate it. I recently hacked most of it off. I have considered shaving it totally bald & just wearing wigs more than once!
9. Whats your favorite girly magazine?
I hate to admit that i like the gossip rags like Us & people. Theyre random & have bright colors to keep my attention, lol...
10. What's your favorite mascara?
I dont think I have one anymore. It used to be Love My Eyes Protein Mascara, but the last time I bought a tube it flaked off my lashes all over my cheeks. Right now I'm using this double-ended purple/black mascara from Physician's Formula. I like it but its like 9 bucks :(
11. Do you get your nails done?
No. I have never set foot in a nail salon, I always do them myself. I mostly just paint my natural nails(like every day, too many wonderful colors to choose from!), but I occasionally do acrylics. Not often though, cause I really don't like the feel of fake nails, they're a PITA to take off, & you can't scratch with them!
12. Small or large purses?
I wish i could carry a cute small one, but i cant, i need my stuff :-(
13. In your purse, what are your must haves?
Wallet, phone, Compact + various makeups, packets of truvia(cause im allergic to aspartame), spare phone battery, knife, mini-brush, hand sanitizer, mini-bottle of clear polish, nail file, clippers, tweezers, and way too damn much perfume. Currently I'm sporting an purse-size atomizer of L De Lolita Lempicka & a full-size Demeter Cinnamon Bark. And once my latest ebay order arrives, you can add a mini-bottle of Thierry Mugler Alien to that mix :) I was carrying a full size Max Mara Le Parfum, but I'm kinda over that one now so I took it out. Over did that one alllll winter long. Yeah I'm a total perfume whore, I can't help it. There's just something so magical about scents. A scent can trigger so much- memories, emotions, etc.
14. Jeans or skirts?
Both. Depends on my mood.
15. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable?
Normally no, unless it just looks insanely hot.
16. Do you text message a lot?
You would expect me to say yes since I'm a phone addict, but I really don't.
17. What would you do if you got pregnant?
A year ago I would have said I'd 'nip it in the bud', but now I'd definitely keep the baby. I'm starting to feel the urge to be a mommy, which is just wierd as shit. I kind of want a little boy :S
18. What's your favorite color?
Purple.
19. Heels or flats?
Flats, or low heels. Heels and the clumsy do not mesh well.
20. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Not unless someone's dying or whatever. The only love story I cry at is The Crow.
21. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
I did today. I just don't care anymore, lol...
22. Walmart or Target?
WalMart. I dont go to Target unless I need something that only they carry. I like saving money.
23. Do you wear collared shirts?
No. I have no neck & my hair is at a length where it just tucks into a collar & looks wierd.
24. Do you like preppy boys?
Some of them are cute, but their attitudes are often less cute.
25. Are you spoiled?
I dont think so. I usually get what I want but I dont stomp my feet & hold my breath if I don't.
26. Do you think lip gloss is the best?
I love gloss. I have chronically dry lips so gooey lip gloss is a lifesaver.
27. Do you own any big sunglasses?
Yep. In fact my coworker once told me I looked like lady GaGa in them, heh...
28. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
15-20 mins.
29. Do you like to wear band aids?
Only if I have a cut...
30. Do you like skater boys?
Yes, they're adorable :)
31. Do you wish there is something you could change about you?
My weight. Everything else I can deal with.
32. Gold or silver?
Silver.
33. Do you like to receive flowers?
No, I cant stand watching them die.
34. Do you like surfer boys?
Yes. No shirts & long hair, can't go wrong!
35. Do you dress up for holidays?
Only if I'm going to a christmas party or something.
36. Do you like to wear dresses?
Sometimes, if theyre awesome & make me look skinny, lol...
37. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
2. I understand men prettywell, which is why I'm still single.
38. In the last 48 Hours have you hung out with a guy?
Does at work count?
39. Do you wear lipstick?
Sometimes, but usually its just Carmex or gloss. Lipstick has too much smear potential. MAC has 2 that I wear regularly though- Intricate & Bubbles. Both pale, shimmery, and sheer.
40. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
Absolutely. Though I would be hard pressed to find one. I'm like 5 foot half an inch.
43. Do you like to hold hands?
Sometimes, usually not though. I like having my hands free.
44. What is the youngest you would date?
I don't like to go more than a year or 2 younger, but I could be persuaded to date someone as young as 21 if I really liked him.
45. What is the oldest you would date?
I'd say 55. But I'd make exceptions for David Bowie & Christopher Walken :D
46. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
Their teeth & hands. If either are gross, then no chance.
47. Is it hot when guys are sweaty?
Ew, no. I hate sweat.
48. What is the best possible feature in a boy?
Nerdiness. Seriously.
49. Do you like making eye contact?
No, I hate it. I have a form of high-functioning autism that makes me kind of shy, and eye contact freaks me out. I compensate by staring at people's mouths when they talk.
50. Do you ever picture your wedding dress and wedding?
Not really. I've never been one of those girls that sits at home & dreams about her wedding. I'd like a medieval wedding though, if I ever get married.
52. Would you kill for chocolate?
Not unless I was starving to death.
53. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
HAHA. No.
54. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
Ehhhh, 7. Depends what I'm shopping for. Usually its more frustrating than fun.
55. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite shows?
Only if they're new episodes.
56. Do you yell a lot?
Nope. Only if you're yelling at me, then I'll drown your ass OUT.
57. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
I did at Hitachi, but not anymore. Oh, how I miss Hitachi :(
58. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
A few times, I'll admit.
59. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
LOL I used to.
60. What makeup could you not live w/out?
Concealer, powder, lip gloss, nail polish, and perfume.
61. Do you fall in love easily?
I used to, but I've been hurt so many times that I fear love now.
62. Do you have cramps?
LOL not at the moment, but whenever I get my period...
63. Do you consider yourself pretty?
Not really. I never have. I'm average, passable.
64. Do you think guys will open this, even though it says girly questions?
Probably. Nosy fuckers.
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1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
If they're honestly being sweet, yes.
2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
Ew, short for sure. I hate poofy dresses.
3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
Read it.
4. Group dates or single dates?
Both.
5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
I hate when ANYONE does that. It makes me wonder if I really know them at all.
6. Are diamonds a girl's best friend?
No, I dont like diamonds. Now, ancient Dragon's Breath glass, THAT's a girl's best friend. Well, a nerdy medievalist-girl's best friend anyway...
7. Is your hair up or down?
Always down. Too short to put up yet :/
8. Do you straighten your hair?
Yep. I have the worst hair texture, its straight in parts, wavy in parts, and curly at my nape. AND its thick & takes ages to straighten. I hate hate hate it. I recently hacked most of it off. I have considered shaving it totally bald & just wearing wigs more than once!
9. Whats your favorite girly magazine?
I hate to admit that i like the gossip rags like Us & people. Theyre random & have bright colors to keep my attention, lol...
10. What's your favorite mascara?
I dont think I have one anymore. It used to be Love My Eyes Protein Mascara, but the last time I bought a tube it flaked off my lashes all over my cheeks. Right now I'm using this double-ended purple/black mascara from Physician's Formula. I like it but its like 9 bucks :(
11. Do you get your nails done?
No. I have never set foot in a nail salon, I always do them myself. I mostly just paint my natural nails(like every day, too many wonderful colors to choose from!), but I occasionally do acrylics. Not often though, cause I really don't like the feel of fake nails, they're a PITA to take off, & you can't scratch with them!
12. Small or large purses?
I wish i could carry a cute small one, but i cant, i need my stuff :-(
13. In your purse, what are your must haves?
Wallet, phone, Compact + various makeups, packets of truvia(cause im allergic to aspartame), spare phone battery, knife, mini-brush, hand sanitizer, mini-bottle of clear polish, nail file, clippers, tweezers, and way too damn much perfume. Currently I'm sporting an purse-size atomizer of L De Lolita Lempicka & a full-size Demeter Cinnamon Bark. And once my latest ebay order arrives, you can add a mini-bottle of Thierry Mugler Alien to that mix :) I was carrying a full size Max Mara Le Parfum, but I'm kinda over that one now so I took it out. Over did that one alllll winter long. Yeah I'm a total perfume whore, I can't help it. There's just something so magical about scents. A scent can trigger so much- memories, emotions, etc.
14. Jeans or skirts?
Both. Depends on my mood.
15. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable?
Normally no, unless it just looks insanely hot.
16. Do you text message a lot?
You would expect me to say yes since I'm a phone addict, but I really don't.
17. What would you do if you got pregnant?
A year ago I would have said I'd 'nip it in the bud', but now I'd definitely keep the baby. I'm starting to feel the urge to be a mommy, which is just wierd as shit. I kind of want a little boy :S
18. What's your favorite color?
Purple.
19. Heels or flats?
Flats, or low heels. Heels and the clumsy do not mesh well.
20. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Not unless someone's dying or whatever. The only love story I cry at is The Crow.
21. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
I did today. I just don't care anymore, lol...
22. Walmart or Target?
WalMart. I dont go to Target unless I need something that only they carry. I like saving money.
23. Do you wear collared shirts?
No. I have no neck & my hair is at a length where it just tucks into a collar & looks wierd.
24. Do you like preppy boys?
Some of them are cute, but their attitudes are often less cute.
25. Are you spoiled?
I dont think so. I usually get what I want but I dont stomp my feet & hold my breath if I don't.
26. Do you think lip gloss is the best?
I love gloss. I have chronically dry lips so gooey lip gloss is a lifesaver.
27. Do you own any big sunglasses?
Yep. In fact my coworker once told me I looked like lady GaGa in them, heh...
28. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
15-20 mins.
29. Do you like to wear band aids?
Only if I have a cut...
30. Do you like skater boys?
Yes, they're adorable :)
31. Do you wish there is something you could change about you?
My weight. Everything else I can deal with.
32. Gold or silver?
Silver.
33. Do you like to receive flowers?
No, I cant stand watching them die.
34. Do you like surfer boys?
Yes. No shirts & long hair, can't go wrong!
35. Do you dress up for holidays?
Only if I'm going to a christmas party or something.
36. Do you like to wear dresses?
Sometimes, if theyre awesome & make me look skinny, lol...
37. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
2. I understand men prettywell, which is why I'm still single.
38. In the last 48 Hours have you hung out with a guy?
Does at work count?
39. Do you wear lipstick?
Sometimes, but usually its just Carmex or gloss. Lipstick has too much smear potential. MAC has 2 that I wear regularly though- Intricate & Bubbles. Both pale, shimmery, and sheer.
40. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
Absolutely. Though I would be hard pressed to find one. I'm like 5 foot half an inch.
43. Do you like to hold hands?
Sometimes, usually not though. I like having my hands free.
44. What is the youngest you would date?
I don't like to go more than a year or 2 younger, but I could be persuaded to date someone as young as 21 if I really liked him.
45. What is the oldest you would date?
I'd say 55. But I'd make exceptions for David Bowie & Christopher Walken :D
46. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
Their teeth & hands. If either are gross, then no chance.
47. Is it hot when guys are sweaty?
Ew, no. I hate sweat.
48. What is the best possible feature in a boy?
Nerdiness. Seriously.
49. Do you like making eye contact?
No, I hate it. I have a form of high-functioning autism that makes me kind of shy, and eye contact freaks me out. I compensate by staring at people's mouths when they talk.
50. Do you ever picture your wedding dress and wedding?
Not really. I've never been one of those girls that sits at home & dreams about her wedding. I'd like a medieval wedding though, if I ever get married.
52. Would you kill for chocolate?
Not unless I was starving to death.
53. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
HAHA. No.
54. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
Ehhhh, 7. Depends what I'm shopping for. Usually its more frustrating than fun.
55. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite shows?
Only if they're new episodes.
56. Do you yell a lot?
Nope. Only if you're yelling at me, then I'll drown your ass OUT.
57. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
I did at Hitachi, but not anymore. Oh, how I miss Hitachi :(
58. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
A few times, I'll admit.
59. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
LOL I used to.
60. What makeup could you not live w/out?
Concealer, powder, lip gloss, nail polish, and perfume.
61. Do you fall in love easily?
I used to, but I've been hurt so many times that I fear love now.
62. Do you have cramps?
LOL not at the moment, but whenever I get my period...
63. Do you consider yourself pretty?
Not really. I never have. I'm average, passable.
64. Do you think guys will open this, even though it says girly questions?
Probably. Nosy fuckers.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Art pr0n...
You know what always cheers me up? Aside from a hot piss of pee from Fjeurg Van Der Ploeg's Swedish Bockery, beautiful surrealist paintings from Jacek Yerka always do the trick. I don't know what it is about his art, but everytime I look at it, it takes me away to another world where everything is strange & alien, but somehow you still feel completely at home. Kind of like whenever I listen to Owl City. You cannot look at a Yerka painting without being forever changed.
One of my favorites of his is this one, 'Back to Nature'. I dont know what it is about this painting, its downright wierd, but I love it. Most of his works have water as a prominent theme, and since I'm terrified of water, maybe its a morbid fascination or something. Behold~
Another one I like is this one(I dont know the name). I love trains, and it also evokes a sense of home, but with a faint sense of urgency. You've got your furniture, your cozy little home set up, but you're inside a train station, so you never know when you won't have a home anymore. The trains don't come very often, but when they do, they give little notice and you always have to scramble to move your stuff in time. It makes you feel a sense of constant vigilance, and having to sleep with one eye open. I know this feeling well.
However, I think my absolute favorite of his is 'Base'. This painting makes my heart physically hurt. It hearkens back to a time in my life when I didn't have a stationary 'base', AKA a home. Well, I did, but I was always on the run. It was back in 2000, when I met the guy I would fall insanely in love with for the next 10 years. We spent 3 months on the road, just driving around, doing whatever we wanted, and sleeping in the car. It was the best and worst time of my life. During this time we fell completely in love with each other, and its a love that's persisted to this day, despite the fact that we can't be together. Anywhere I was with him was home, even if we were sleeping on the grass in a city park. I could have slept comfortably on cold, wet rocks as long as he was holding my hand as my eyes closed. The 2 beds huddled together on the vast expanse of the tire-scarred ground perfectly signifies this, and the raindrops are perfect too since this time took place during a rainy spring. It's like Yerka was in the backseat the whole time, and captured everything between us into one single painting. I can't look at this picture without feeling overwhelmingly emotional. Its almost too much to bear, but its also strangely comforting.
A similar one that also evokes a lot of emotion in me is 'Susan'. You could say that this one represents me now- a single bed out in the twilight... *cries*
Another one I love is "Illegal Light Making". Dunno why, but this painting just makes me feel happy & homey when I see it.
The first painting of his that I obsessed over was this one, 'The Oligocene Gardens'. Like I said earlier, a lot of his work features water, and spigots & spouts everywhere, and a lot of algae. I used to stare at this painting, imagining the vast world of creatures that must be lurking under the yellow algae cover, alternately horrified & fascinated at the same time.
Thats all for now. Enough art spam!
One of my favorites of his is this one, 'Back to Nature'. I dont know what it is about this painting, its downright wierd, but I love it. Most of his works have water as a prominent theme, and since I'm terrified of water, maybe its a morbid fascination or something. Behold~
Another one I like is this one(I dont know the name). I love trains, and it also evokes a sense of home, but with a faint sense of urgency. You've got your furniture, your cozy little home set up, but you're inside a train station, so you never know when you won't have a home anymore. The trains don't come very often, but when they do, they give little notice and you always have to scramble to move your stuff in time. It makes you feel a sense of constant vigilance, and having to sleep with one eye open. I know this feeling well.
However, I think my absolute favorite of his is 'Base'. This painting makes my heart physically hurt. It hearkens back to a time in my life when I didn't have a stationary 'base', AKA a home. Well, I did, but I was always on the run. It was back in 2000, when I met the guy I would fall insanely in love with for the next 10 years. We spent 3 months on the road, just driving around, doing whatever we wanted, and sleeping in the car. It was the best and worst time of my life. During this time we fell completely in love with each other, and its a love that's persisted to this day, despite the fact that we can't be together. Anywhere I was with him was home, even if we were sleeping on the grass in a city park. I could have slept comfortably on cold, wet rocks as long as he was holding my hand as my eyes closed. The 2 beds huddled together on the vast expanse of the tire-scarred ground perfectly signifies this, and the raindrops are perfect too since this time took place during a rainy spring. It's like Yerka was in the backseat the whole time, and captured everything between us into one single painting. I can't look at this picture without feeling overwhelmingly emotional. Its almost too much to bear, but its also strangely comforting.
A similar one that also evokes a lot of emotion in me is 'Susan'. You could say that this one represents me now- a single bed out in the twilight... *cries*
Another one I love is "Illegal Light Making". Dunno why, but this painting just makes me feel happy & homey when I see it.
The first painting of his that I obsessed over was this one, 'The Oligocene Gardens'. Like I said earlier, a lot of his work features water, and spigots & spouts everywhere, and a lot of algae. I used to stare at this painting, imagining the vast world of creatures that must be lurking under the yellow algae cover, alternately horrified & fascinated at the same time.
Thats all for now. Enough art spam!
Update on WinPho7
New details- no copy & paste, no SD card support(only internal storage, a la iPhone), super-tight controls on developers, predefined hardware requirements(1ghz cpu, WVGA screen min. res., 3 button setup; home, back, and search), and no user customization.
Honestly- who the HELL is still excited for WP7 after hearing all this?!? I'm to the point where I will go back to my old Treo 700p before I would ever use this horrible, godawful, retard-friendly monstrosity that is known as Windows Phone 7.
I truly have no clue WTF Microsoft is thinking by anally raping WinMo like this. This is the WORST possible direction to take their OS in. Its like they hired Opie from the Pawtucket Brewery to spearhead this project. I repeat- this is Palm OS all over again. Did a complete redesign work for them? Hell no, Palm is going BANKRUPT & is contemplating selling to another company.
This reinforces my big philosophy- Sometimes the old ways really are best.
Companies, please hear my words: STOP FUCKING FIXING SHIT THAT ISN'T BROKEN.
Honestly- who the HELL is still excited for WP7 after hearing all this?!? I'm to the point where I will go back to my old Treo 700p before I would ever use this horrible, godawful, retard-friendly monstrosity that is known as Windows Phone 7.
I truly have no clue WTF Microsoft is thinking by anally raping WinMo like this. This is the WORST possible direction to take their OS in. Its like they hired Opie from the Pawtucket Brewery to spearhead this project. I repeat- this is Palm OS all over again. Did a complete redesign work for them? Hell no, Palm is going BANKRUPT & is contemplating selling to another company.
This reinforces my big philosophy- Sometimes the old ways really are best.
Companies, please hear my words: STOP FUCKING FIXING SHIT THAT ISN'T BROKEN.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
COREY, NOOOOOOOOO!!!
Corey Haim was found dead today of an apparent drug overdose. He was only 38. How sad.
I loved you, Corey. I wanted you to be my boyfriend all through my tween years, and I watched the Lost Boys over & over again just to ogle you. You will be missed.
I'm all paranoid now. Who's next, Eddie Furlong? Please Odin, no!!! I'd have to end it all if my Eddie was taken from me.
RIP Corey :(
I loved you, Corey. I wanted you to be my boyfriend all through my tween years, and I watched the Lost Boys over & over again just to ogle you. You will be missed.
I'm all paranoid now. Who's next, Eddie Furlong? Please Odin, no!!! I'd have to end it all if my Eddie was taken from me.
RIP Corey :(
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Some good news for WinMo!
Looks like MS WILL be keeping classic Windows Mobile around! They will continue to support 6.x.x until demand dies out.
Thank god. I can unclench now.
Thank god. I can unclench now.
Typo but it stays...
Just a little tuesday LOLz for ya...
Something hilarious happened to me last week at work. I do chat-based tech support for a huge hard drive company- I only deal with the internal employees so it's far less painful than regular tech support, and I really love my job. Last friday though, I secured my place in the company's hall of fame.
I had an employee on chat that needed his laptop reimaged due to a virus infestation. I typed this to him- "Just so I'm clear, you're needing to reinstall the OS/reimage the hard disk, right?"
Only I didn't type DISK. I typed something much worse, something that will go down in the company's history as one of the most epic typos ever. Yes, I typed DICK. I hurriedly added "DISK, sorry!" and fortunately, the user was quite professional about it. He was silent for a few minutes, no doubt laughing hysterically on his end, then replied "yes". I know why I typed that, its quite an innocent mistake. I write in Russian a lot, and the Russian S is C in english, and I'm always typing stuff like 'ctart' & whatnot on accident. But this is by far the worst typo I've ever made.
Of course, by the end of the day it was all over the company, and I was getting congratulated by all my coworkers. Even one of the IT guys found me on Gchat & said "Thanks for the laugh!". I learned that the chat logs are automatically saved into each respective service ticket, and are viewable by all! I honestly thought I was gonna get disciplined or even fired, but then I heard that the big boss laughed the hardest. This is why I love my job :D
I now am the butt of nympho jokes at work, and one of my coworkers has saved me in his phone as 'hard disk'. This incident has vastly increased my popularity at work, lol...
I honestly don't know whether to be horrified or proud of myself.
Something hilarious happened to me last week at work. I do chat-based tech support for a huge hard drive company- I only deal with the internal employees so it's far less painful than regular tech support, and I really love my job. Last friday though, I secured my place in the company's hall of fame.
I had an employee on chat that needed his laptop reimaged due to a virus infestation. I typed this to him- "Just so I'm clear, you're needing to reinstall the OS/reimage the hard disk, right?"
Only I didn't type DISK. I typed something much worse, something that will go down in the company's history as one of the most epic typos ever. Yes, I typed DICK. I hurriedly added "DISK, sorry!" and fortunately, the user was quite professional about it. He was silent for a few minutes, no doubt laughing hysterically on his end, then replied "yes". I know why I typed that, its quite an innocent mistake. I write in Russian a lot, and the Russian S is C in english, and I'm always typing stuff like 'ctart' & whatnot on accident. But this is by far the worst typo I've ever made.
Of course, by the end of the day it was all over the company, and I was getting congratulated by all my coworkers. Even one of the IT guys found me on Gchat & said "Thanks for the laugh!". I learned that the chat logs are automatically saved into each respective service ticket, and are viewable by all! I honestly thought I was gonna get disciplined or even fired, but then I heard that the big boss laughed the hardest. This is why I love my job :D
I now am the butt of nympho jokes at work, and one of my coworkers has saved me in his phone as 'hard disk'. This incident has vastly increased my popularity at work, lol...
I honestly don't know whether to be horrified or proud of myself.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Windows Phone 7- a rant.
The more I read about MS's new & "improved" version of Windows Mobile, the more I want to drink poison. I'm seeing the impending death of my favorite OS with the announcement of WM7. I hate you, Microsoft. WM7 looks like something you'd find on a Firefly, or a Nickelodeon phone aimed at pre-teens. It's completely different- no more Start menu, its all huge, brightly colored icons & 72 point fonts. No more support for legacy programs- it's not backwards compatible! No more multitasking either(but have no fear- your Twitter feeds will still update in the background, so you'll always know what Tila Tequila is up to!). Storage will be cloud based, which means you can store all your shit on remote servers & just stream whatever you want. Uh-oh, no data connection? Well then you're just fucked, buddy!
The new UI looks like something you'd see on a dumbphone thats trying to imitate a smartphone, like a Samsung Instinct. Now, the Instinct is a good phone, but if I wanted my phone to look like an Instinct, I'd have gotten an Instinct to begin with. I know they wanna win over the drooling masses with eye candy, but what about us geeks? The people who use their phones for things other than listening to top 40 & stalking their exes on Myspace? This is a HUGE step back for WM. I do not know what MS is thinking with this monstrosity & it truly hurts my heart to see them ass-raping WinMo like this. Did they not see what happened with Palm? "Wow, look how WebOS has taken over the market, and look how happy long-time Palm users are that they can't run their old apps anymore! We SO need to get in on that!" /sarcasm. Nobody even THINKS about WebOS or Palm anymore, they committed SUICIDE by killing Garnet. Microsoft is pounding the nail into the coffin of their mobile relevancy with this move, mark my words.
Windows Mobile has a HUGE geek following, and MS is just going to ensure that even more people migrate to Android & iPhone by abandoning us to cater to scenester douchebags. They'll be alienating a shit-ton of long time users, and I for one don't appreciate it. I NEVER thought I'd say this- but if MS is really gonna give the big F-U to its legacy users, or if they don't offer options to those of us who care more about functionality than cute icons & social networking, well... then Android or even the iPhone(shudder) might just be an option for me. Never thought I'd seek comfort in the arms of the enemy, but if the rumors turn out to be true, then that might just happen. And anyone who knows me knows I am a HARDCORE WinMo geek, so that is really saying something.
The real nail in the coffin is the lack of backwards compatibility. This is what's going to kill this new OS. That is why the Treo 755p was my last Palm device, cause they killed BC with the Pre. Yeah, a guy developed an emulator for old palm apps for the Pre, but how long did that take, a year? I've spent a lot of money of WM apps over the years, and I'll be damned if I'm gonna give them all up for cloud storage & animated icons.
To put it in perspective for those of you who think I'm overreacting- How would you feel if Windows(or Mac OS whatever, or Linux) was totally rewritten & came out looking like something off a Leapster? And what if you could only do one thing at a time, had far less options, and none of your favorite programs worked with it anymore? What if you had to find alternatives to every program you used to use every day? What is you were forced to learn a whole new OS & had to learn new ways to do everything? And what if they did it just to cater to all the DUMB SHITS who were too stupid to figure out how to use the old version? You'd be PISSED. You'd feel betrayed by the company. You would feel INSULTED that they think you are so stupid that you need such a simple OS. This is exactly how I feel about WM7.
I hate it when companies fix things that aren't broken. It happens every time I find something I really like- it either gets discontinued or it gets changed into something completely different. Dodge discontinued Neons in 2005. The Body Shop changed their heavenly vanilla perfume oil into some nauseating flowery crap. MAC discontinued my favorite lipstick. MIA no longer makes those cute strappy black sandals I used to love. Grandy's went out of business. Nivea discontinued my favorite toner. Et cetera, et cetera. I'm afraid to like anything anymore! Yes, WM needed UPDATING, but it didn't need to be completely redone into a whole new OS. Yeah they might eliminate some crashes, but they've also gotten rid of everything that makes WinMo great. WTF. But I guess appealing to teenagers, soccer moms, and tech-tards is more important than keeping existing customers happy & making REAL progress. I truly never thought I'd see a day when social networking would take precedence over multitasking capabilities, but apparently that day has come. I'm honestly in shock. I don't know how to feel, I'm kinda numb here. I admit I'm pretty big on social networking- I have a Myspace, a Facebook, a blog, about 10 email addresses, and various profiles in all sorts of forums. But social networking is not the MAIN THING I use my phone for! What about customization, tailored today screens, total program freedom, hacks, tweaks, and the like? Is changeable wallpaper supposed to satisfy our appetites for individuality? No. No no no no no.
This new OS is aimed at all the morons who bitched & whined that using classic WinMo is 'too hard!', but the complexity is what I love MOST about it. You can hack it till the cows come home & make it do whatever you want it to do! What's not to like about that? WHY does every company always dumb everything down?! Why not force people to LEARN rather than contribute to their ignorance by making things easier? A man will eat for a day if you give him a fish, but he will starve tomorrow unless he LEARNS to fish.
I swear- I've said it before & I'll say it again- we are hurtling toward Idiocracy at an alarming rate. When Microsoft has to reduce Windows Mobile, a powerful business-oriented, versatile mobile OS thats been around for 14 years, to a mishmash of bright colors & flashy animations just to stay on the market, then it's time to start worrying. I can't believe anyone would be okay with a 'new & improved' version of anything being DUMBED DOWN to appeal to morons. Its an insult to our collective intelligence. Even on the video(scroll down) the guy is saying this new version is not aimed at business users, but at everyone else. Translation: "Since you're all too stupid to operate regular Windows Mobile, here's a much more idiot-friendly version for ya!"
Pardon my french, but this is fucking bullshit. Windows Phone 7 makes me want to die. Seriously. If I can't have my comfortable old WinMo, then I don't see the point of going on any more. They BETTER keep 6.5 around, or I just might lose it. They need to release 7 as a separate 'consumer edition' & keep the classic version around for smart people. If they make 7 backwards compatible & give us multitasking, then I MIGHT try it, but as of now its looking like nothing more than a glorified Instinct.
Take a look at this digital abortion~
WOW!!! You can find movie listings & update your Facebook & search the web! Odd... vexing... but I can do that on my LG Lotus dumbphone too, what the hell?! And if I didn't know better I'd think they were trying to imitate the iPhone with all that pinch to zoom bullshit. Way to go, Microsoft. You really screwed the pooch this time.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH.
The new UI looks like something you'd see on a dumbphone thats trying to imitate a smartphone, like a Samsung Instinct. Now, the Instinct is a good phone, but if I wanted my phone to look like an Instinct, I'd have gotten an Instinct to begin with. I know they wanna win over the drooling masses with eye candy, but what about us geeks? The people who use their phones for things other than listening to top 40 & stalking their exes on Myspace? This is a HUGE step back for WM. I do not know what MS is thinking with this monstrosity & it truly hurts my heart to see them ass-raping WinMo like this. Did they not see what happened with Palm? "Wow, look how WebOS has taken over the market, and look how happy long-time Palm users are that they can't run their old apps anymore! We SO need to get in on that!" /sarcasm. Nobody even THINKS about WebOS or Palm anymore, they committed SUICIDE by killing Garnet. Microsoft is pounding the nail into the coffin of their mobile relevancy with this move, mark my words.
Windows Mobile has a HUGE geek following, and MS is just going to ensure that even more people migrate to Android & iPhone by abandoning us to cater to scenester douchebags. They'll be alienating a shit-ton of long time users, and I for one don't appreciate it. I NEVER thought I'd say this- but if MS is really gonna give the big F-U to its legacy users, or if they don't offer options to those of us who care more about functionality than cute icons & social networking, well... then Android or even the iPhone(shudder) might just be an option for me. Never thought I'd seek comfort in the arms of the enemy, but if the rumors turn out to be true, then that might just happen. And anyone who knows me knows I am a HARDCORE WinMo geek, so that is really saying something.
The real nail in the coffin is the lack of backwards compatibility. This is what's going to kill this new OS. That is why the Treo 755p was my last Palm device, cause they killed BC with the Pre. Yeah, a guy developed an emulator for old palm apps for the Pre, but how long did that take, a year? I've spent a lot of money of WM apps over the years, and I'll be damned if I'm gonna give them all up for cloud storage & animated icons.
To put it in perspective for those of you who think I'm overreacting- How would you feel if Windows(or Mac OS whatever, or Linux) was totally rewritten & came out looking like something off a Leapster? And what if you could only do one thing at a time, had far less options, and none of your favorite programs worked with it anymore? What if you had to find alternatives to every program you used to use every day? What is you were forced to learn a whole new OS & had to learn new ways to do everything? And what if they did it just to cater to all the DUMB SHITS who were too stupid to figure out how to use the old version? You'd be PISSED. You'd feel betrayed by the company. You would feel INSULTED that they think you are so stupid that you need such a simple OS. This is exactly how I feel about WM7.
I hate it when companies fix things that aren't broken. It happens every time I find something I really like- it either gets discontinued or it gets changed into something completely different. Dodge discontinued Neons in 2005. The Body Shop changed their heavenly vanilla perfume oil into some nauseating flowery crap. MAC discontinued my favorite lipstick. MIA no longer makes those cute strappy black sandals I used to love. Grandy's went out of business. Nivea discontinued my favorite toner. Et cetera, et cetera. I'm afraid to like anything anymore! Yes, WM needed UPDATING, but it didn't need to be completely redone into a whole new OS. Yeah they might eliminate some crashes, but they've also gotten rid of everything that makes WinMo great. WTF. But I guess appealing to teenagers, soccer moms, and tech-tards is more important than keeping existing customers happy & making REAL progress. I truly never thought I'd see a day when social networking would take precedence over multitasking capabilities, but apparently that day has come. I'm honestly in shock. I don't know how to feel, I'm kinda numb here. I admit I'm pretty big on social networking- I have a Myspace, a Facebook, a blog, about 10 email addresses, and various profiles in all sorts of forums. But social networking is not the MAIN THING I use my phone for! What about customization, tailored today screens, total program freedom, hacks, tweaks, and the like? Is changeable wallpaper supposed to satisfy our appetites for individuality? No. No no no no no.
This new OS is aimed at all the morons who bitched & whined that using classic WinMo is 'too hard!', but the complexity is what I love MOST about it. You can hack it till the cows come home & make it do whatever you want it to do! What's not to like about that? WHY does every company always dumb everything down?! Why not force people to LEARN rather than contribute to their ignorance by making things easier? A man will eat for a day if you give him a fish, but he will starve tomorrow unless he LEARNS to fish.
I swear- I've said it before & I'll say it again- we are hurtling toward Idiocracy at an alarming rate. When Microsoft has to reduce Windows Mobile, a powerful business-oriented, versatile mobile OS thats been around for 14 years, to a mishmash of bright colors & flashy animations just to stay on the market, then it's time to start worrying. I can't believe anyone would be okay with a 'new & improved' version of anything being DUMBED DOWN to appeal to morons. Its an insult to our collective intelligence. Even on the video(scroll down) the guy is saying this new version is not aimed at business users, but at everyone else. Translation: "Since you're all too stupid to operate regular Windows Mobile, here's a much more idiot-friendly version for ya!"
Pardon my french, but this is fucking bullshit. Windows Phone 7 makes me want to die. Seriously. If I can't have my comfortable old WinMo, then I don't see the point of going on any more. They BETTER keep 6.5 around, or I just might lose it. They need to release 7 as a separate 'consumer edition' & keep the classic version around for smart people. If they make 7 backwards compatible & give us multitasking, then I MIGHT try it, but as of now its looking like nothing more than a glorified Instinct.
Take a look at this digital abortion~
WOW!!! You can find movie listings & update your Facebook & search the web! Odd... vexing... but I can do that on my LG Lotus dumbphone too, what the hell?! And if I didn't know better I'd think they were trying to imitate the iPhone with all that pinch to zoom bullshit. Way to go, Microsoft. You really screwed the pooch this time.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Any honest, SINGLE guys out there???
So once again, I have been lied to by a male. Big shock huh? I don't know why I even bat an eyelash anymore, I'm so used to it. Maybe I'm still naive enough to think it'll be different every time. Stupid me! This time, it's a guy I've known for 5 years.
I've dated this guy, Justin, off & on since 05. He's a really nice guy. Army sargeant, very disciplined, self-sufficient, decently well-off, good looking, cute dog, nice car, etc. We've always had a lot of fun together, we get along great & have a lot in common. He always took me on nice dates, and we even went to Hot Import Nights one year. We've never been TOO serious since he lives all the way down in Lawton(about 70-80 miles away) and neither of us want a long-distance relationship, but I really liked him & I honestly cared about him. So I NEVER expected to find out what I found out last night. I found out, from MYSPACE of all sources, that he's MARRIED! And upon doing a bit more digging, I found out that he's BEEN married since 2006 and just never bothered to tell me!!!
This is some horse shit. This is a guy who told me that he isn't ready to settle down, that he'd never get married, blah blah blah. Is this kind of crap common or does it only happen to ME? Why is it that every guy I THINK I know turns out to either be an asshole or a lying sack of shit?! Are there any guys out there that are JUST FUCKING NORMAL?!?! Pardon my french but I'm really pissed. And hurt too, I know this guy wasn't the love of my life or anything, but I DID think he was at least a DECENT GUY. Hell, I drove all the way down there to see him just YESTERDAY! I found out a little while ago that he was seeing another girl down there, but he led me to believe they were swingers & that she knew about me. I didn't LIKE it, but like I said we weren't serious(and yes, condoms were used). But a WIFE??? Come on. And this is a guy who got upset after I started dating someone else during one of our "off" periods! I guess it's okay for ME to have to share but not for him!
What the hell happened to gentlemen, and chivalry? Why can't I find someone who has enough respect to just be HONEST with me? Honesty is the BARE MINIMUM that I expect from people, it's the simplest thing in the world to give so why is it so hard to just tell the damn truth? I'm the most easygoing person in the world, you can tell me ANYTHING and it'll be cool. The only time I really get mad is when I have to FIND OUT about it! What is it about my face that just screams "LIE TO MEEE!"??? This happens every damn time I date someone. I always end up finding out about a girlfriend, or a wife, or a kid, or a drug problem, or a criminal record, or a mental illness, or a checkered past... et cetera, the list could go on ad nauseam.
The old saying, 'Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned' is VERY true:) I have saved all our texts & emails, and I might just tell his wife. Turns out they're NOT swingers, and if she finds out he's dead meat. She's a rather "husky" gal too, and I think he's afraid of her. If he gets away with this he'll never learn anything.
Goddamnit. I know it's just yet another incidence of a guy lying to me, but it still hurts every time.
I've dated this guy, Justin, off & on since 05. He's a really nice guy. Army sargeant, very disciplined, self-sufficient, decently well-off, good looking, cute dog, nice car, etc. We've always had a lot of fun together, we get along great & have a lot in common. He always took me on nice dates, and we even went to Hot Import Nights one year. We've never been TOO serious since he lives all the way down in Lawton(about 70-80 miles away) and neither of us want a long-distance relationship, but I really liked him & I honestly cared about him. So I NEVER expected to find out what I found out last night. I found out, from MYSPACE of all sources, that he's MARRIED! And upon doing a bit more digging, I found out that he's BEEN married since 2006 and just never bothered to tell me!!!
This is some horse shit. This is a guy who told me that he isn't ready to settle down, that he'd never get married, blah blah blah. Is this kind of crap common or does it only happen to ME? Why is it that every guy I THINK I know turns out to either be an asshole or a lying sack of shit?! Are there any guys out there that are JUST FUCKING NORMAL?!?! Pardon my french but I'm really pissed. And hurt too, I know this guy wasn't the love of my life or anything, but I DID think he was at least a DECENT GUY. Hell, I drove all the way down there to see him just YESTERDAY! I found out a little while ago that he was seeing another girl down there, but he led me to believe they were swingers & that she knew about me. I didn't LIKE it, but like I said we weren't serious(and yes, condoms were used). But a WIFE??? Come on. And this is a guy who got upset after I started dating someone else during one of our "off" periods! I guess it's okay for ME to have to share but not for him!
What the hell happened to gentlemen, and chivalry? Why can't I find someone who has enough respect to just be HONEST with me? Honesty is the BARE MINIMUM that I expect from people, it's the simplest thing in the world to give so why is it so hard to just tell the damn truth? I'm the most easygoing person in the world, you can tell me ANYTHING and it'll be cool. The only time I really get mad is when I have to FIND OUT about it! What is it about my face that just screams "LIE TO MEEE!"??? This happens every damn time I date someone. I always end up finding out about a girlfriend, or a wife, or a kid, or a drug problem, or a criminal record, or a mental illness, or a checkered past... et cetera, the list could go on ad nauseam.
The old saying, 'Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned' is VERY true:) I have saved all our texts & emails, and I might just tell his wife. Turns out they're NOT swingers, and if she finds out he's dead meat. She's a rather "husky" gal too, and I think he's afraid of her. If he gets away with this he'll never learn anything.
Goddamnit. I know it's just yet another incidence of a guy lying to me, but it still hurts every time.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Random things that are pissing me off today...
*Stupid, trendy baby names like 'Nevaeh'. Pregnant women- please, pick something else. There's gonna be like 10 little reverse-Heavens in every kindergarten class in a few years. And doesn't saying words backwards make them mean the OPPOSITE of their original meaning anyway? So technically, when you name your daughter Nevaeh, you're really naming her Hell. Yeah. Chew on that for a while.
*Commercials with hip-hop theme songs. E-diets & Bally Gym are two offenders that come to mind.
*Dry skin. If I'm not careful my facial skin gets so dry it turns flaky & even scabby. Sometimes I think I have Ichthyosis. I have to use packing tape, yes- PACKING TAPE, every night to get the layer of dead skin off. Stick & pull, stick & pull, that's my skin care routine. If I don't do it it just builds up & then I break out really bad. I'm test-driving a thicker moisturizer, cause this shit just sucks. ~sigh~
*Skin tags. They're so gross, like little neck-warts. Every woman in my family gets them, I have to snip off whole crops of them several times a year. Yes, I cut them off with scissors. No, it doesn't hurt(unless you go too deep, which I've done), and bleeding is usually minimal. Last night I cut off a huge one by my armpit that's been snagging my shower pouf for weeks. Eeeew!
*MY LITTLE BASTARD!!! God, how I hate that goddamn commercial. If you watch Adult Swim you know what I'm talking about.
*Hereditary hirsuitism. One of my major purchases after I get my bills caught up is gonna be a Tria home hair-lasering doohickey. Slavic heritage, while glorious, comes with the price of excess body hair. My mother Nairs her mustache. I wax mine :/
*Also, shaving. I hate shaving. My ankles are a roadmap of old & new scars, and no matter how careful I am I cut myself EVERY TIME I shave, despite the fact that I've had 18 years of practice. Yes, I began shaving at age 11. And yes, it WAS necessary.
*Daytime TV. It's all paternity tests, soaps, and ghetto-college commercials. Idiocracy in the making!
*My mom's shitty attitude. She never has ANYTHING nice to say. If I got an A she'd bitch cause it wasn't an A+. Now, she just bitches about every single thing I say & do.
*Chronic sinusitis. It really sucks to be congested all the time, especially when I'm trying to sing & the high notes come out as pitiful squeaks. And I'm doomed to headaches & perpetually packed sinuses forever unless I have the horribly painful surgery(that I can't even afford anyway) to widen my maxillary drainage ducts.
*The fact that every time I watch Dazed & Confused, I get the urge to get high. I'm anti-drug! I shouldn't EVER wanna smoke pot. Yet I'm seriously considering freezing some pee & making a few calls. WTF.
*My knees, specifically the left one. In Dec. '07 I got in a wreck where I slammed my knees against the dashboard. Ever since then they've been giving me problems, and it doesn't help that everyone except my dad on that side of the family has had knee replacements :-[
*Commercials with hip-hop theme songs. E-diets & Bally Gym are two offenders that come to mind.
*Dry skin. If I'm not careful my facial skin gets so dry it turns flaky & even scabby. Sometimes I think I have Ichthyosis. I have to use packing tape, yes- PACKING TAPE, every night to get the layer of dead skin off. Stick & pull, stick & pull, that's my skin care routine. If I don't do it it just builds up & then I break out really bad. I'm test-driving a thicker moisturizer, cause this shit just sucks. ~sigh~
*Skin tags. They're so gross, like little neck-warts. Every woman in my family gets them, I have to snip off whole crops of them several times a year. Yes, I cut them off with scissors. No, it doesn't hurt(unless you go too deep, which I've done), and bleeding is usually minimal. Last night I cut off a huge one by my armpit that's been snagging my shower pouf for weeks. Eeeew!
*MY LITTLE BASTARD!!! God, how I hate that goddamn commercial. If you watch Adult Swim you know what I'm talking about.
*Hereditary hirsuitism. One of my major purchases after I get my bills caught up is gonna be a Tria home hair-lasering doohickey. Slavic heritage, while glorious, comes with the price of excess body hair. My mother Nairs her mustache. I wax mine :/
*Also, shaving. I hate shaving. My ankles are a roadmap of old & new scars, and no matter how careful I am I cut myself EVERY TIME I shave, despite the fact that I've had 18 years of practice. Yes, I began shaving at age 11. And yes, it WAS necessary.
*Daytime TV. It's all paternity tests, soaps, and ghetto-college commercials. Idiocracy in the making!
*My mom's shitty attitude. She never has ANYTHING nice to say. If I got an A she'd bitch cause it wasn't an A+. Now, she just bitches about every single thing I say & do.
*Chronic sinusitis. It really sucks to be congested all the time, especially when I'm trying to sing & the high notes come out as pitiful squeaks. And I'm doomed to headaches & perpetually packed sinuses forever unless I have the horribly painful surgery(that I can't even afford anyway) to widen my maxillary drainage ducts.
*The fact that every time I watch Dazed & Confused, I get the urge to get high. I'm anti-drug! I shouldn't EVER wanna smoke pot. Yet I'm seriously considering freezing some pee & making a few calls. WTF.
*My knees, specifically the left one. In Dec. '07 I got in a wreck where I slammed my knees against the dashboard. Ever since then they've been giving me problems, and it doesn't help that everyone except my dad on that side of the family has had knee replacements :-[
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Save Haiti!
Everyone PLEEEEEZ donate everything you can spare to Haiti relief efforts!!!
Or, on second thought- DON'T. I won't be donating so much as a red cent. Haiti is a cesspool of crime, disease, and savagery, and I'm sorry it didn't sink into the ocean. Haiti is the asshole of the Caribbean.
Haitians are currently looting stores, piling up dead bodies as roadblocks, and protesting the current relief efforts. Why? because they say it's NOT ENOUGH! It's an entire welfare nation, and now it's New Orleans all over again.
I say let 'em wallow in their own crapulence till they either kill each other or die of famine. We should not help people who DEMAND it, or those who, if the tables were turned, would leave us to rot if we needed their help. I don't see why America helps ANYONE anymore, cause all the rest of the world does is bitch about us and carry on about how much they hate us.
Or, on second thought- DON'T. I won't be donating so much as a red cent. Haiti is a cesspool of crime, disease, and savagery, and I'm sorry it didn't sink into the ocean. Haiti is the asshole of the Caribbean.
Haitians are currently looting stores, piling up dead bodies as roadblocks, and protesting the current relief efforts. Why? because they say it's NOT ENOUGH! It's an entire welfare nation, and now it's New Orleans all over again.
I say let 'em wallow in their own crapulence till they either kill each other or die of famine. We should not help people who DEMAND it, or those who, if the tables were turned, would leave us to rot if we needed their help. I don't see why America helps ANYONE anymore, cause all the rest of the world does is bitch about us and carry on about how much they hate us.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Weird Japanese drinks...
So last summer I went to Soda Pop's with my old boyfriend, and picked up a bottle of bizarre Japanese soda. It's called Ramune, and the bottle is somewhat reminiscent of a blown glass sex toy. Alas, it is a bit too large to actually be USED for this purpose.
It's been sitting in my fridge since July, cause honestly I haven't had the guts to drink it yet. Lets face it- Asians are famous for consuming the grossest shit on the planet. Kombucha, Balut, Kopi Luwak, Natto, Nakji, monkey brains, and Baby Mouse Wine, just to name a few horrifying delicacies. Feel free to Google any of those if you ever need help throwing up. I'm convinced that, in the East, for something to be deemed a 'delicacy' it has to fit into one or more of the following categories:
*rotten
*poisonous
*bugs
*eyeballs
*brains
*animal genitalia
*live animals
*things crapped out by live animals
*things that should never, ever be eaten by any human being under any circumstances
I must warn potential Googlers that many Asian delicacies often involve horrific animal cruelty, so if you're an animal lover like me you might be better off remaining ignorant on how monkey brains & Nakji are traditionally served. I had tears in my eyes after reading about Baby Mouse Wine & Balut. It really makes me wonder- what the @#$% is wrong with the people that eat this stuff. What kind of heartless monster can cook an animal alive, blindly disregarding their suffering, without hating themselves? It's sickening. Yes, some Asians do this. Some animals are cooked & even eaten while still alive, all because some Chinese guy thinks the meat tastes better when cooked this way, or that it'll give him a stronger boner.
But anyway, I digress. With the Asian track record for gross edibles, quite naturally I was wary of this soda. I was afraid it might have nightingale poop, ground up spiders, or cat amniotic fluid in it. But seeing as the ingredients are carbonated water, HFCS, sugar, citric acid, and flavor(though what this 'flavor' consists of is a mystery. It could be anything from lemon juice to human urine), I figured it was probably pretty safe & decided to conquer it once & for all.
The way it's sealed is quite interesting- the bottle is stoppered with a marble, and a plastic opener is attached to the top. To open it, you separate the opener from the packaging, center it on the marble, and push like hell till the marble drops into the bottle.
See the marble?
Pretty neat, I must say. Though actually DRINKING from this bottle was less than efficient. Not only did it feel like I was drinking from a penis(lol), the way the opening is designed, the soda splashes everywhere if you're not careful. I had to put my lips on it & just kind of pour it in my mouth. And I'm sure that somewhere, someone is getting off on that visual. Pervert.
Now, onto the soda itself. It tastes like slightly sweetened carbonated water. I liken it to very watered down Big Red(if you've never tried Big Red soda, then you're missing out). Rather unremarkable, honestly. I expected a bit more of a tongue-punching, judging from the colorful bottle. But overall- palatable, and not that bad.
YAAAY I did it! I drank the bizarre Japanese soda & lived to blog about it.
It's been sitting in my fridge since July, cause honestly I haven't had the guts to drink it yet. Lets face it- Asians are famous for consuming the grossest shit on the planet. Kombucha, Balut, Kopi Luwak, Natto, Nakji, monkey brains, and Baby Mouse Wine, just to name a few horrifying delicacies. Feel free to Google any of those if you ever need help throwing up. I'm convinced that, in the East, for something to be deemed a 'delicacy' it has to fit into one or more of the following categories:
*rotten
*poisonous
*bugs
*eyeballs
*brains
*animal genitalia
*live animals
*things crapped out by live animals
*things that should never, ever be eaten by any human being under any circumstances
I must warn potential Googlers that many Asian delicacies often involve horrific animal cruelty, so if you're an animal lover like me you might be better off remaining ignorant on how monkey brains & Nakji are traditionally served. I had tears in my eyes after reading about Baby Mouse Wine & Balut. It really makes me wonder- what the @#$% is wrong with the people that eat this stuff. What kind of heartless monster can cook an animal alive, blindly disregarding their suffering, without hating themselves? It's sickening. Yes, some Asians do this. Some animals are cooked & even eaten while still alive, all because some Chinese guy thinks the meat tastes better when cooked this way, or that it'll give him a stronger boner.
But anyway, I digress. With the Asian track record for gross edibles, quite naturally I was wary of this soda. I was afraid it might have nightingale poop, ground up spiders, or cat amniotic fluid in it. But seeing as the ingredients are carbonated water, HFCS, sugar, citric acid, and flavor(though what this 'flavor' consists of is a mystery. It could be anything from lemon juice to human urine), I figured it was probably pretty safe & decided to conquer it once & for all.
The way it's sealed is quite interesting- the bottle is stoppered with a marble, and a plastic opener is attached to the top. To open it, you separate the opener from the packaging, center it on the marble, and push like hell till the marble drops into the bottle.
See the marble?
Pretty neat, I must say. Though actually DRINKING from this bottle was less than efficient. Not only did it feel like I was drinking from a penis(lol), the way the opening is designed, the soda splashes everywhere if you're not careful. I had to put my lips on it & just kind of pour it in my mouth. And I'm sure that somewhere, someone is getting off on that visual. Pervert.
Now, onto the soda itself. It tastes like slightly sweetened carbonated water. I liken it to very watered down Big Red(if you've never tried Big Red soda, then you're missing out). Rather unremarkable, honestly. I expected a bit more of a tongue-punching, judging from the colorful bottle. But overall- palatable, and not that bad.
YAAAY I did it! I drank the bizarre Japanese soda & lived to blog about it.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Telepathy- fantasy or possibility?
The human brain is a most amazing organ. It regulates the entire body, from blinking the eyes to digestion. It is capable of unbelievable feats, and god only knows what it's capable of that we don't even know about yet. If we could unlock the secrets of the brain, there's no limit to what we could do. Case in point- there have always been speculations about whether telepathy, AKA mental communication, is possible. The commonly held belief among the public is that it is not possible(though the popularity of psychic phone lines belies this, lol), but I have a theory that may offer up some insight as to why it actually IS possible.
The human brain basically operates on electricity. It sends out jolts to make your muscles move, your heart beat, your lungs expand, etc. Our brains emit waves as well, kind of like radio waves. What's to say that one person's brain is incapable of 'tuning in' to another person's brain if they happen to be emitting the same frequency? Just like tuning a radio to a specific broadcast. I believe it is entirely possible, although actual occurrences of 2 brains of close proximity being on the same frequency at the same time must be rare. It has happened to me before though, I have had instances of 'shared thoughts'. It almost always happened when I was in a deep relaxation state, almost asleep. It happened just a few months ago with my ex- We were laying in bed & I was falling asleep, and I was thinking about how he had been teasing my dog(a chihuahua) earlier that evening. Bear in mind, I was THINKING about it, I was not SAYING anything out loud. Right after I had that thought, he said OUT LOUD- "I wasn't teasing that chihuahua!". I nearly fell out of bed. I have no other explanation other than that he somehow picked up on my brain waves. If we could somehow learn to CONTROL what waves we emit(and I have no doubt there have been people who have achieved this), I believe voluntary telepathy is entirely possible. Mass mind control- not so much.
I also think brain waves are behind telekinesis too. Who says that a strong enough brain wave can't affect an object? Look at the Hutchison effect- the guy can make shit FLOAT with electric waves!
The brain kicks ass.
The human brain basically operates on electricity. It sends out jolts to make your muscles move, your heart beat, your lungs expand, etc. Our brains emit waves as well, kind of like radio waves. What's to say that one person's brain is incapable of 'tuning in' to another person's brain if they happen to be emitting the same frequency? Just like tuning a radio to a specific broadcast. I believe it is entirely possible, although actual occurrences of 2 brains of close proximity being on the same frequency at the same time must be rare. It has happened to me before though, I have had instances of 'shared thoughts'. It almost always happened when I was in a deep relaxation state, almost asleep. It happened just a few months ago with my ex- We were laying in bed & I was falling asleep, and I was thinking about how he had been teasing my dog(a chihuahua) earlier that evening. Bear in mind, I was THINKING about it, I was not SAYING anything out loud. Right after I had that thought, he said OUT LOUD- "I wasn't teasing that chihuahua!". I nearly fell out of bed. I have no other explanation other than that he somehow picked up on my brain waves. If we could somehow learn to CONTROL what waves we emit(and I have no doubt there have been people who have achieved this), I believe voluntary telepathy is entirely possible. Mass mind control- not so much.
I also think brain waves are behind telekinesis too. Who says that a strong enough brain wave can't affect an object? Look at the Hutchison effect- the guy can make shit FLOAT with electric waves!
The brain kicks ass.
Resolutions update
Just a quick follow up to document how well I've been keeping my resolutions.
1. Learn math.
Check. I have acquired a math book(see previous entry) and have actually cracked it open!
2. Losing weight.
Check. I am already 4 pounds lighter, w00t. I have all but ceased the consumption of overly fatty foods & soda.
3. Stop self-destructive behaviors.
Check. I have remained unwavering in my shunning of people who have treated me like shit. I am taking supplements religiously too- Standard multivitamins for general health, Hyaluronic acid for my craptastic joints, Cinnamon capsules for metabolism, and Biotin for hair, skin & nails :)
4. Cherishing real friends.
Check and mate. I'm keeping in contact pretty well, IMO. I'm really making a concerted effort to come out of my shell too.
GO ME!!!
1. Learn math.
Check. I have acquired a math book(see previous entry) and have actually cracked it open!
2. Losing weight.
Check. I am already 4 pounds lighter, w00t. I have all but ceased the consumption of overly fatty foods & soda.
3. Stop self-destructive behaviors.
Check. I have remained unwavering in my shunning of people who have treated me like shit. I am taking supplements religiously too- Standard multivitamins for general health, Hyaluronic acid for my craptastic joints, Cinnamon capsules for metabolism, and Biotin for hair, skin & nails :)
4. Cherishing real friends.
Check and mate. I'm keeping in contact pretty well, IMO. I'm really making a concerted effort to come out of my shell too.
GO ME!!!
My Birthday Haul
So this year my mom got me some cool stuff for my birthday that I actually WANTED. Oh hosanna, not a single bottle of lotion!
NERD BOOKS!!! The horrendous plaid abortion they're laying on is a really comfy brand-new birthday coat. I had the choice of solid purple, solid black or pink plaid, but I figured the turquoise & brown plaid would go a bit better with my status as an unfashionable social outcast. I love it. I really needed a new coat too. I've been wearing thin little hoodies & freezing my ass off every winter since 07, when my old coat was stolen. This one is cool, it has a removable fleece liner that can be worn as a separate jacket. Now all I need is a pocket protector. Yaaaaay!
OH- and guess what else I got? After lusting after it for the past year but never being able to spare the dough, I finally got a bottle of my favorite perfume(Max Mara Le Parfum, for future gift referencing, wink wink nudge nudge) from my friend Gay Steve(who claims he's NOT, lol), via the discount magic of Ebay. Thanks, you creepy mongoloid :)
NERD BOOKS!!! The horrendous plaid abortion they're laying on is a really comfy brand-new birthday coat. I had the choice of solid purple, solid black or pink plaid, but I figured the turquoise & brown plaid would go a bit better with my status as an unfashionable social outcast. I love it. I really needed a new coat too. I've been wearing thin little hoodies & freezing my ass off every winter since 07, when my old coat was stolen. This one is cool, it has a removable fleece liner that can be worn as a separate jacket. Now all I need is a pocket protector. Yaaaaay!
OH- and guess what else I got? After lusting after it for the past year but never being able to spare the dough, I finally got a bottle of my favorite perfume(Max Mara Le Parfum, for future gift referencing, wink wink nudge nudge) from my friend Gay Steve(who claims he's NOT, lol), via the discount magic of Ebay. Thanks, you creepy mongoloid :)
Friday, January 1, 2010
10 random things about me.
1. I'm descended from both Vikings & Vlad the Impaler. It is literally impossible for me to NOT be awesome.
2. I'm 29, but I still refuse to cuss or talk about sex in front of my parents.
3. I was born with red hair and blue eyes, and I now have medium brown hair & dark hazel eyes.
4. I walked at 6 months, ran at 8 months, spoke at a year, and knew the order of the planets by the time I was one & a half.
5. I always put on my socks before I put on my pants. I WILL NOT put on pants before socks. Damn OCD.
6. I suffer from dermatillomania. It's a facet of my OCD & in layman's terms- it's skin-picking. God help any zit that dares to spoil my face. My cuticles are always ragged & scabby, and I have chronic dry lips from picking at them so much. It sucks. You have no idea how annoying it is to never be able to sit still & to always feel like you have to be scraping or chewing on something.
7. I have Asperger's syndrome. I don't have a real severe case, but I am on the Autism spectrum. Overall it's not really that bad of a thing to have, honestly. The only parts I really hate are the crippling anti-socialism & extreme emotional sensitivity(I cry REALLY easily over trivial things sometimes). It's also unbelievably hard to sustain a relationship cause its really hard for me to relate to other people. And being the center of attention in public is, to me, more horrifying than being diagnosed with cancer. I get annoyed really easily and have a hard time controlling my temper too.
If ya wanna get technical(and I always do)~
Impaired social reactions are a key component of Asperger's syndrome. People who suffer from this condition find it difficult to develop meaningful relationships with their peers. They struggle to understand the subtleties of communicating through eye contact, body language, or facial expressions and seldom show affection towards others. They are often accused of being disrespectful and rude, since they find they can’t comprehend expectations of appropriate social behavior and are often unable to determine the feelings of those around them. People suffering from Asperger's syndrome can be said to lack both social and emotional reciprocity.
Although Asperger's syndrome is related to autism, people who suffer from this condition do not have other developmental delays. They have normal to above average intelligence and fail to meet the diagnostic criteria for any other pervasive developmental disorder. In fact, people with Asperger's syndrome often show intense focus, highly logical thinking, and exceptional abilities in math or science.
* Average or above average intelligence
* Inability to think in abstract ways
* Difficulties in empathising with others
* Problems with understanding another person's point of view
* Hampered conversational ability
* Problems with controlling feelings such as anger, depression and anxiety
* Adherence to routines and schedules, and stress if expected routine is disrupted
* Inability to manage appropriate social conduct
* Specialised fields of interest or hobbies.
See? It's not that bad.
8. I absolutely love reading smutty fan fiction in my spare time. My favorite pairing is Bella/Jacob, with Draco/Hermione and Snape/Hermione both vying for second. Yes, I'm a sicko ;)
9. I quit shaving my armpits several months ago. And I must admit, it's quite freeing!
10. I think David Bowie & Alan Rickman are the two sexiest old men alive.
2. I'm 29, but I still refuse to cuss or talk about sex in front of my parents.
3. I was born with red hair and blue eyes, and I now have medium brown hair & dark hazel eyes.
4. I walked at 6 months, ran at 8 months, spoke at a year, and knew the order of the planets by the time I was one & a half.
5. I always put on my socks before I put on my pants. I WILL NOT put on pants before socks. Damn OCD.
6. I suffer from dermatillomania. It's a facet of my OCD & in layman's terms- it's skin-picking. God help any zit that dares to spoil my face. My cuticles are always ragged & scabby, and I have chronic dry lips from picking at them so much. It sucks. You have no idea how annoying it is to never be able to sit still & to always feel like you have to be scraping or chewing on something.
7. I have Asperger's syndrome. I don't have a real severe case, but I am on the Autism spectrum. Overall it's not really that bad of a thing to have, honestly. The only parts I really hate are the crippling anti-socialism & extreme emotional sensitivity(I cry REALLY easily over trivial things sometimes). It's also unbelievably hard to sustain a relationship cause its really hard for me to relate to other people. And being the center of attention in public is, to me, more horrifying than being diagnosed with cancer. I get annoyed really easily and have a hard time controlling my temper too.
If ya wanna get technical(and I always do)~
Impaired social reactions are a key component of Asperger's syndrome. People who suffer from this condition find it difficult to develop meaningful relationships with their peers. They struggle to understand the subtleties of communicating through eye contact, body language, or facial expressions and seldom show affection towards others. They are often accused of being disrespectful and rude, since they find they can’t comprehend expectations of appropriate social behavior and are often unable to determine the feelings of those around them. People suffering from Asperger's syndrome can be said to lack both social and emotional reciprocity.
Although Asperger's syndrome is related to autism, people who suffer from this condition do not have other developmental delays. They have normal to above average intelligence and fail to meet the diagnostic criteria for any other pervasive developmental disorder. In fact, people with Asperger's syndrome often show intense focus, highly logical thinking, and exceptional abilities in math or science.
* Average or above average intelligence
* Inability to think in abstract ways
* Difficulties in empathising with others
* Problems with understanding another person's point of view
* Hampered conversational ability
* Problems with controlling feelings such as anger, depression and anxiety
* Adherence to routines and schedules, and stress if expected routine is disrupted
* Inability to manage appropriate social conduct
* Specialised fields of interest or hobbies.
See? It's not that bad.
8. I absolutely love reading smutty fan fiction in my spare time. My favorite pairing is Bella/Jacob, with Draco/Hermione and Snape/Hermione both vying for second. Yes, I'm a sicko ;)
9. I quit shaving my armpits several months ago. And I must admit, it's quite freeing!
10. I think David Bowie & Alan Rickman are the two sexiest old men alive.
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